Uninspired

Currently, things are dull here. Not necessarily a bad thing, but dull nonetheless. Work is still far too long (12 hour shifts - WHY?!!), but now that I'm used to it and I know what I'm meant to be doing and when, it goes a lot quicker and days fly by when I'm at work. They're exhausting me - due to being the only bloke on my side of the shifts, I get a lot more day-to-day jobs to do now. Which is fine, but exhausting. It also means that when people kick-off, I'm the one who has to go and sort it out. I'm just hoping no-one discovers I'm actually a wuss anytime soon...

Been Christmas shopping lately, which has been a lot less hassle than normal, due to the joys of the internet! I've done the majority of my shopping online, with the odd exception here and there. But it's been great! I just hope it all gets delivered here before Christmas.

The kids staying with us seem settled, even if they do seem increasingly more wierd every day. I know the girl has autism, but she is very odd with it. And the lad is coming out of his shell day by day, which is good. Even starting to get some banter with him. It's just strange having them around, it alters the whole dynamics here - but I think that's in a good way. Me, Mam and Dad all seem closer as a result. Which can only be a good thing, surely.

I think I'm a bit flat, spiritually, at the moment too. I feel like God is a fair distance from me, and that I'm just 'going through the motions' at the moment. And I don't quite know what to do about it. At the moment, I'm just persevering on and doing 'the usual'. I think part of it is due to the fact that I'm spiritually very lonely. There is no-one local with whom I can have spiritual conversations with, particularily blokes. I do miss you "men" at Wheelock, it seems, particularly Danny. Spiritual support is vital in our Christian life, I'm convinced of it more and more. And I trust God is totally in control of all this, and has planned/allowed for life to be this way to make me more like his Son, I guess it's just hard sometimes. I don't like feeling spirtually empty. But God knows what he's doing, and so I'll trust him. Infact, there's nothing else I can do BUT trust him. So that I shall...

Also! Go to this link and download a fantastic song from the newest Damien Rice album. Just don't tell anyone I let you do it...