A change in the mood

This made me smile:

Children are smarter than any of us. Know how I know that? I don't know one child with a full time job and children - Bill Hicks

True story. He was a funny man. If a tad rude at points.

Do you ever have those times where you feel like there's an infinite stream of thoughts of profoundity and beauty flying round your head, and then when you try and get them out - in whatever form that may be - you feel completely retarded and unable to string together 2 words with any meaning at all.

And then sometimes, you feel completely unable to justify the way that you feel? Like, you have a good day and a really nice time and then feel awful afterwards? Where does that come from? It's like I have this strange need to sabotage any positive feelings I have about anything. I have a need and a very clever ability to sabotage most good things in my life.

And so, bearing that in mind, how on earth to I combat that with the truth of God being Sovereign? I know He is, and I trust it with all of my heart, but how do my emotions and things come into play with that? How do I balance them off? Which is what? It's so confusing sometimes. But then others, when I sit and actually think about it or vocalise it to someone else, it's really not that confusing and I just manage to get myself all in a tizzy over nothing.

Maybe that's part of the problem with me sometimes: I don't have someone to vocalise my thoughts to so I can see when I'm being an idiot clearer, and so I can reason myself out of certain moods and feelings.

Maybe, just maybe, I'm being overdramatic. I suspect that's highly likely.